Had been for years. I thought I learned how to live a normal life, but that’s the thing about addiction, it creeps back up when you least expect it. There is no one there for me, no one I can turn to for help. Until I’m given a chance to explore a side of myself I’d always kept locked away. I was lost…until him. I can’t tell you who he is, or why he does the things he’s done. All I can say is I hope one day I behave well enough to take off the blindfold and see the man who controls my addiction. My Master.
My name is John and I am addicted to control.
I tried to deny the dominate side of my personality. I didn’t want to admit how much I enjoyed the power, how much I enjoyed causing pain. That is until the woman I’d been secretly been stalking waltzed into a BDSM club right in front of me. All bets are off. She will be mine.
Together our addictions feed off each other, fueling the fire that burns within. Until suddenly the fire is too hot to handle, burning everything in its path. The pain and scars we’d both come into our fragile relationship with are split wide open, exposing more than either of us can handle, possibly leaving nothing behind to salvage from the ashes.
**Warning: Intended for audiences 18+ due to explicit sex & vulgar language, mention of rape/abuse**
+++Contains BDSM situations, explicit sex, vulgar language, references to sexual abuse that might cause triggers. Triggers.
- Rachael Orman takes addiction to a whole new level. Reading Addict was an eye-opening and insightful experience. Sex addiction is often dismissed or laughed off and not seen as psychological disorder. Rachael Orman presents sex addiction in Alix as a compulsion, something she’s helpless against, a pressure that builds until it’s uncontainable and must be satisfied even if it requires putting herself in perilous situations. Alix feels helpless, damaged, and incapable of leading a normal life or even daring to dream of a healthy relationship because of her condition. Her agony is stark and twisted, full of poignant sadness and yearning. Alix seeks help but quickly loses faith that she can overcome. As the plot progressed Alix’s emotions become a whirlwind of uncertainty and something like hope.
- Addict is blunt, shocking, graphic, made of pure desire and spoken wants. There’s startling scenes that will leave you blushing and bashful because they feel forbidden, taboo, and in some cases, too raunchy to be true. Alix’s actions at her desk and the subsequent reactions by John are a heady combination of embarrassing and exhilarating.
- John is sexy, dominant and exhibits extreme control. He wields his sexuality with the prowess of a fierce predator. He knows what he wants and takes it. John wants to help Alix, she’s a temptation he can’t resist and what he feels is overwhelming. When he becomes Master J, holy hotness. The scenes are graphic and told from both perspectives so you get both sides of their pleasure.
- Together Alix and John are discovering each other through a safe combination of pleasure and pain. Alix finds peace of mind in subspace and John gains salvation learning what an emotional connection can bring to his lonely. John heals from his past through his interactions with Alix. BDSM scenes aren’t too detailed that they read like step-by-step instructions, they flow smoothly and are full of tantalizing tension.
- John and Alix’s backstories are mentioned but it never goes into great detail. There are hints that lead to sexual abuse etc., but the reader is left with gapping holes where those explanations should be. These memories would have shed light on both of their personalities and maybe even strengthened them; instead, their absence brought confusion and speculation that wasn’t satisfied.
- Secondary characters have little purpose and barely function at all in the story. They’re fleeting and forgettable.
- John’s insistence on keeping his past and job a mystery was understandable but to an extent. Eventually it became an annoyance and there wasn’t a reason to continue such cloak and dagger antics.